Mar. 5th, 2011

goodbyes

Mar. 5th, 2011 11:15 pm
bunnylove: (Supernatural → Bad day)
Thank you everyone for your comments, love and support about my Grandma, it means a lot to me. Tomorrow my aunt is having an open house/gathering so we can all say goodbye and remember. We opted out of having a formal funeral/service since it's just too much stress for everyone and in later years my Grandma wasn't really affiliated with any church or organization, so we felt it wasn't really necessary. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty nervous about tomorrow. I haven't been to something like this for a family member since I was about 7 and that was for my Grandpa. I barely remember any of it, so really this is the first time tackling the whole 'death of a family member' as an adult. I am always uncomfortable crying in front of family or in public. I just try to bottle it all up and then usually have my own mini meltdowns alone days or weeks after everything. Healthy, no? ;P

This week has been hard for various reasons, some not having anything to do with Grandma. Money is bad, probably the worst it's been in... well, ever. Last night I crushed my big toe underneath the giant blue garbage bin at work; probably one of the most painful things I have ever felt in my entire life. Thankfully my toe wasn't broken. I could barely walk the rest of the night, but today I can bend it fine and put pressure on it, it's just turning a nice purple/blue colour. I also wanted to take my mum to the aquarium for her birthday on Wednesday and I had the mindset that I would make this happen no matter what, but I can't, so that kinda knocked me down too. I have made alternate plans; I have gift cards from Christmas to the movies and to a restaurant so that will just as fun. So to really sum it up this really hasn't been my week for a number of reasons. :D I think after tomorrow is over with I'll start feeling better and just having the pressure of certain things over with and I can just gather my wits and focus on assembling my portfolio.

[eta] THIS ANIMAL IS NOW MY HERO JUST BECAUSE IT LOOKS LIKE SOME KIND OF REAL LIFE POKEMON:

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