They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
Again I start off another Christmas entry saying I have no idea how this happened. How this holiday, how this year has creeped up and is suddenly here. Bam. 2008 almost over and 2009 (WTF?!) is about to begin.
I don't really want to wax poetic about this past year, because right now I'm not seeing a lot of happiness. Of course there are good points and highlights, but for the most part 2008 wasn't remarkable or terribly special in any real way. I did, however get a new job, which I'm enjoying so far. I truly think if I were still at Starbucks I may not have my sanity right now. I got that bit over with my life and am very happy for it.
My one wish, truly, is for my mum to get the help she needs. She's suffering mentally and physically and there's nothing I can do. I hate having to watch her being so miserable. I'm tired of trying to push and prod her to get things done, I want her to take hold of her life, to stop mentally beating herself down. I just want peace. Peace of mind and stability. I hope 2009 will bring some of that for her and for us. I want to stop hurting, too and having to worry about issues that should be my parents responsibility and not mine.
What I do know and this is a one constant, is all of you, my friends, here on LJ and in RL. I am always amazed at the love and support that people provide me and each other. Even if we may have drifted apart and may not talk as much as we used too or have grown closer, I love you all. There are a lot of hard things that we have to put up with on a day to day basis and sometimes it's remarkable how we come through with our sanity intact. I guess that's one of the blessings and curses of LJ. Ah, it's an escape and when we need it it's always there for us.
I wish I could give you all that you deserve and want, if I had that in my power to do so I would in a nano second. Sadly it is not, so all I can offer up is my hugs, love, prayers, and my very best wishes for this holiday season and the new year.
Again this Christmas won't be all that flashy and filled with presents, but it'll still be nice. It's more than the material gain. I really don't need much anyway, I have enough anyway. Although a nice vacation would be nice. :P
Even if you skip all the stuff I wrote above, please have a safe and Happy Christmas, Hanukkah, Winter Solstice (although I'm a tad late on that one), Kwanzaa or whatever you may or may not celebrate. All my love to you all.
6th Christmas using this banner, still love it!
BTW, do any Canadians know when/if the Doctor Who
Christmas special will be airing here?