Dec. 24th, 2005

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I may sound a bit emo here, but if you could read this entry it'd make me happy.

This year.... I just really cannot put into words. There are so many things I want to forget and so little I want to cherish, sad but true and I really do hurt inside to think of some things that has gone on. I really still cannot put my head around what's happened. In my life, in my families lives, in my friends and in the world. I've grown so much as a person and in many different ways this year and I think I may be better for it. I'm not sure. I still have a lot of growing to do.

But one thing that has been constant through all of this is you guys. I honestly don't think I'd be here (I'm not talking suicide or anything like that) or at least part of me wouldn't be here without you guys. I know some of you knew exactly how I felt and some of you may not have known the full extent, but did feel my pain. Being homeless and evicted from 2 places in less than 4 months isn't easy, as well as being broke and on welfare most of the time. You guys really helped. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know I may have been selfish and may not have been there for all of you as much as I should have, we all have our own battles to go through and if I wasn't there I'm truly sorry.

This Christmas for me will be hard, but I'm lucky in so many ways that others are not, so I am counting my blessings. This will be my first Christmas without a tree, so it'll feel kinda weird, but what I lack in tree's I have in love. Wow, how corny was that sentence? Compared to past Christmas's I'm hardly getting anything, but I don't care because there are more important things. although I'd still like Orlando buck nekkid in my bed Christmas morning.

If I had the power to give everyone what they wanted for Christmas I'd do it in a heart beat, but sadly I'm not God. *le sigh* I'm sorry I couldn't even send out many cards or even presents this year. My family is getting nothing but coffee this year because I can't afford to give them anything else. Please know that I have you all in my prayers and in my thoughts for this season and in the new year.

You are all angels in your own beautiful way. Thank you.


This'll be the 3rd Christmas I've used this banner on here, and I still love it to bits. *G*
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We normally don't get mail on Saturdays in Canada, but I was shocked when I just got a knock at the door from the mail man. [livejournal.com profile] damm, thank you so much. Really you didn't have to do this, but thank you. It just cheered me up so much. I was feeling kinda shitty, but now I'm just laughing and crying at the same time. Thanks again. <3333

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