It's Christmas and I keep trying to wrap my head around how the hell that happened. Another year almost done and a new one about to begin. It's scary how fast it comes and goes.

I'm a very lucky person despite all the heartache and depression I have to try and deal with on a day to day basis. I'm in relatively good health, my family is in good health; I have a roof over my head and food to eat on a daily basis. A lot of people around the world don't have that and all I can do right now is just hope that one day something will change for them and pray. I don't know how well that will work, but you have to have hope.

I had a great accomplishment this year; I graduated from high school after years of struggling with it. It's a big weight off my mind and I can now move forward and hopefully get into the program I want to at college.

Like any other year it's had it's ups and downs. This year has been particularly hard on me because I've lost a lot. In February we got news from our former upstairs neighbour that George had passed away. While she lived here George hanged out with us while she was at work and he was such a darling cat. It turns out George was sick from birth (the vets weren't sure with what) and he just wasn't meant to stay here very long. I know he had a great life and was very well loved.

The first huge blow was that I lost my girl, Coda in April. That whole week leading up to us putting her down was just hell, because deep down I knew that she wasn't doing well and it wasn't fair to keep her suffering. It was a heart wrenching decision that we had to make, but it was necessary. I know now she isn't in any pain and is doing well. It was just her time. I love you and I know you're alright.

This past July my other baby, Eowyn went missing. While I know it doesn't look good, I still have to hold out hope for something to happen. I just cannot accept that she may really be gone, it hurts my heart too much to think that. She is my first kitten I ever got and she is a crazy one. But I think all cats are crazy. :P Wherever you are I hope you are well and happy.

And just recently in November Sebastian has now gone missing. Even though he was never technically my cat, he still feels like part of the family. He basically moved in to our place since his mommy moved in next door almost two years ago. I hope he's alright and that he's just gone for a ride (he likes to get in people's cars). The first summer he came to live here he went missing for a month because he hitched a ride in a car and then wandered around a neighbourhood about 10 miles away. Luckily he was fine and someone recognized him from the local paper and he came home. I'm still holding out hope that this is the case again.

Despite my losses in kitties this year there are also some gains. In May gremmie_goo and I went down to the local shelter to look at kitties and I ended up with a Tinkerbell. Leann had sent me her link on Pet Finder a few weeks before hand and she was still there when we went to visit. When I saw her it just felt right and the rest is history. But there was something I didn't expect when I went to the shelter, I fell in love with two kitties. One they said wouldn't be good in a multiple cat home because he had to be King, so Leann and I plotted to adopt this cat for my dad who was moving into a new apartment in the middle of June. I knew I had to have this cat in my life as well as Tinkerbell, but I don't think we could handle three kitties (well four if you count Sebastian). Long story short the plan backfired and dad adamantly didn't want a kitty, in some ways I get and respect his choice. The loss of Jackson was a hard blow to him and it'll take time before he's ready. With the adoption already approved and paid for all that was left to go get the guy. I was hesitant at first, because I've never had more than two cats my whole life and the prospect of three was a bit daunting, but surprisingly (after a hospital visit and a week off of work for my mum) it all worked out and Moe is now a big (physically and mentally) part of our lives. I honestly couldn't see my life without him. The Gods work in odd ways, but I was obviously meant to have this cat.

This past year I met a great many new friends here on LJ through fandom and other means and I'm greatful for that. I wish all of you the best for the holiday and the coming new year. You all deserve the best and brightest. I wish I could give everyone a present or hugs, but unfortunately it's not really in my budget (being a Barista doesn't pay well, trust me LOL). I've grown closer to some of you over the past year and some have left. You know who you are and I won't say anything except that I hope you're well and happy. Even though fandom can get a bad rap sometimes it really is a remarkable thing how it can bring us together and how we can make true friends in unlikely places. I love you guys!

This Christmas won't be a huge one or a flashy one, but I'm happy with it all the same. I actually get to spend some of Christmas day with my dad which is nice because he got a later shift at his job for that day, so I get Christmas morning with my mum and dad and then mum and I are off to my aunts for Christmas dinner. Boxing day we're having brunch with my other aunt, uncle and cousins from Victoria. I haven't seen my cousins in years, so that'll be fun.

If you don't bother reading this whole entry then that's ok, I just had to get some of it out there. I hope you all have a Merry Christmas, you all deserve it!


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FREE TO GOOD HOME! Two cats. One will throw up on you in the middle of the night and bring in dead mice. The other will walk on you at odd hours of the night and bring you dead birds. Serious offers only plz. Kthnx.

I finally got my hands on the Heroes magazine! The book store people finally put it out on the rack.

I really like some of the new photos of Hayden Panettiere from the new GQ, but the one of her on the bed kinda squirks me out. I dunno why, maybe I'm just being weird.

New Moonlight tonight! I'm really starting to get into this show and enjoy it. It's cheesy and fun, a good combination.

Lately I've noticed I'm started to pull away from the Supernatural fandom. Not the show, it's still my favourite, but the fandom is just really getting on my nerves lately. Everyone seems to just be on about something and it's just getting old. Someone says something and someone else jumps down their throats ect. I'm just going to stay out of it and enjoy my boys as well as make graphics of them. Or maybe I should post something where I hope Dean and Bela hook up, that should send people into a frenzy. *is evil*

I'm tired and I want it not to be the shopping season. Retail people do not get paid enough for the kind of shit we get put through, it's a lot harder than it looks. I really hope something better comes along for me soon.

My mum and I bought a light up moose for the yard. That should freak the raccoon's out nicely. We wanted the big one, but it was too expensive, so we just got the small one, but now I feel bad because it'll be all alone outside. I guess I'll have to get another small one so it won't be lonely. Yes, I realize I'm talking about a moose that lights up. :P

I want to make myself dinner but I don't know what to make and I'm too lazy. I really wish we could get into the age where you just tell a thing what you want to have and then it'll materialize right in front of out a la Star Trek.

I need a hair cut, my hair is starting to go down the road of the Crazy Pasdar Hair of Awesome.

BSG: Razor tomorrow! \o/