If God or a God exists please help us

Nothing good happens to good people. That's a fact.

I'm so furious I could actually hurt someone.

What's the point of anything? Christ, I feel like I've been raped and no one has touched me.

[eta] thanks for your support, I'm just glad there are human beings in this world with compassion. we weren't even given the courtesy face to face to tell us the news. They also are talking about us as if we're trash,not even using our names. We're now 'that woman' ect.

I saw a knife in the kitchen and thought about just picking it up and doing some damange, but I know better. It's still awflly tempting. I'm going to be keeping a close eye on mum, god only knows what she's feeling.

I've just snapped. After all we've been through these few months I've just snapped and I'm at a complete loss. If I feel like doing anything I'm going to call my doctor. gremmie_goo is coming over shortly and she'll be here with me and mum for a bit.

Thank you all again, it means a lot even though I have feel utterly and totaly at a loss.

Thank you

You are all seriously angels, if you haven't earned your wings yet then today you have. Thanks for the comments, the hugs and the phone calls. <3

I'm going to lie down for a while.