I don't know if I can deny this anymore

It feels as if there's a bowling ball in my gut as I write this and I'm trying not to hyperventilate either, but I don't think I can ignore the facts.

Coda isn't doing well. The past two weeks she hasn't been moving around like she used to and she's peeing on the floor just where she lays. And now mum and I have noticed that she's not eating much. For those of you who know her (either through here or in real life) you know that's not good. It's all about the food for this cat.

She's 16 (17 on May 4th) and almost 30 pounds. Not healthy I know (and if you say that it's bad and that you're killing your cat I'll get pretty angry, I know it's bad, I know she needs to drop the weight) and we've been struggling to get her weight down for so long, but it's just not coming off, because she doesn't move around like younger cats, even with the diet food and all that.

And now mum is going to try and get a vet appointment for next week. I'm so scared, the last time we took anyone to the vet it was Jack, and he had to be put down. I'm so scared that this will be the same.

I'm going to try and work on my report for art class. We have to do a report/history on an artist and I thought I'd do mine on Kurt Halsey.