Smoke in my eyes

[bunnylove]

I still can't quite believe it and neither can my parents. We're still in shock about the whole thing. My dad's doing a lot better than mum and I thought. It's going to be hard for him because it was just him and Jack at his place. I've had my moments today where I want to phone up and see how he is, but then I think "oh, right" and try to get past it.

Some people may thing 'it was just a dog', but as a lot of pet owners know that it's more than that. They affect our lives so much that it's really amazing how much it hurts when they leave us. He was my first dog. I got him when I was 12. My family has been blessed that we had him despite the trials we faced. We haven't had a loss in the family for a very very long time, so really this is the first passing that I've had to deal with as an adult.

For those of you who are curious, he got very sick very very fast. He was in a lot of pain and couldn't walk and it was just the humane thing to do. It didn't make a lot of sense to spend hundreds of dollars to prolong his life when he wasn't going to be happy. The vet said it could be a number of things, but we just don't know exactly what. Even the vet was crying with us yesterday, that's how much he affected everyone.

Thank you everyone, it meant a lot to hear what you had to say. I still don't feel like discussing it much, so again, please don't take it personally if I don't reply.

Last night and today I worked on my layout. I needed to take my mind off of things. I'm happy with the way it turned out, but the only thing I don't like is that I can't use the customized comments page because the original layout was made for free/paid users.

Aye, avast!: leggyslove

It looks better in Firefox. There are still some bugs that need to be fixed for the IE view.

Eowyn's been missing since yesterday afternoon.

Comments

[claudiasharon.livejournal.com]

*hugs* :( My dog's been acting strange lately...depressed...licking her paws..eating grass..her front claw/nails don't look to good...:-\

Lovely layout. :)

I hope you find Eowyn. :)

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Maybe she has a stomach bug or something? Have you changed her diet at all?

Thanks.

[claudiasharon.livejournal.com]

She won't touch her dog food either...my dad's taking her to the vet eventually.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Is it very hot where you are? It could be the heat.

[claudiasharon.livejournal.com]

Yeah that's the other thing...it's very hot.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

It may be the heat. I know that my kitties don't eat as much when it's really hot out.

[claudiasharon.livejournal.com]

yeah

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Good luck, though! I hope it's just the heat that's causing her problem.

[claudiasharon.livejournal.com]

thanks!

[veronica-rich.livejournal.com]

I presume Eowyn is fixed? In which case, it sounds like she's found a human friend to give her treats. You might ask your neighbors about her frequency at their houses.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Yeah, she's spayed. She likes to go down to this one house a couple of doors down. They were out today so I couldn't ask them, but I may go down there a little later.

[a-blue-moon-cat.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You're so right, pets are just not animals, they are our friends and companions. Your Jack will be missed by you and your family, but you'll see him later, on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge. And I hope you find Eowyn soonish!

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[rubyb.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know exactly how you feel - me and my family went through the exact same thing about a year and a half ago. Our dog was doing so well for his age - he was about 14 - and all of a sudden he got very sick and went downhill very fast, and we had to let him go. We'd had him since I was about 10, he was very much a part of the family :(
And I know this is going to sound very trite, but it will get better with time. *hugs again*

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hugs back*

[oohasparklie.livejournal.com]

I'm really very sorry honey. I know you said you don't feel like talking but if you change your mind, I'm always around. *Hug*

Did Eowyn come back and then hightail it again?

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thanks, it means a lot and helps with all your support.

Did Eowyn come back and then hightail it again?

Yep. I'm not as worried about it as last time, but still you worry like every mommy does. I think she has found a hidey hole or home or something. Either way grounding her didn't work.

[oronena.livejournal.com]

Pets are so more than 'just animals'. The two dogs we have love annoying me! And Yoda (he's a pug) makes faces and everything. especially while laughing at me ... the meanie!

Eowyn must have found some kitty club or something ... zomg Eowyn's gone clubbin! Looking forward to the post that'll say she just came waltzing back in like she did nothing wrong ^__^

And the layout - awesome! Ooooooh you should see the latest issue of Rolling Stone. Well, I don't know if it's on stands yet (we have a subscription) but oh was I ever happy to see it on my desk - JOHNNY DEPP IN CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW GARB! With a sword! All on the cover! Oh oh oh and that 2-page image of him lounging at the front of the article *DROOL* I don't care he's 43 - let me at him!

You so need this issue for teh pretty ^__^

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

I think she must have. I don't know where she goes, but I'd wish she'd come back.

Thank you. And thanks for letting me know about RS, I didn't know he was going to be on the cover.

[limmenel.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, darling. I can't begin to understand your pain, because I've never had to deal with a loss like this, but I'm sending my love and thoughts to you and your family tonight. ♥

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

thank you. <3

[moizissimo.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

It's always hard losing someone you love.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

It is, thank you.

[ceilidh71.livejournal.com]

I had to do the very same thing a few years ago. Sadie, my black lab, got very sick, very quickly, with a fast-growing tumor. Even withi surgery, she would not have survived very long. I did what I knew was the best thing for her: peace and rest with no pain. I like to think that she's somewhere in the Happy Hunting Grounds in the sky, chasign squirrels. People who use the line "just a pet" obviously have no clue.

It will be hard for a while. Take comfort in the fact that you did wht you needed to do for his own peace and rest. ::huge hugs::

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

I do. I'm happy he's ok and not in pain, so in that aspect it makes it easier. But it's still very hard.

[hideincarnate.livejournal.com]

the layout is very pretty Bonnie.

and we understand. We're your friends. take your time.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[moosewizard.livejournal.com]

There is no way a pet you had for so many years can be "just a dog". Your pets are as close to some as their own children -- they're a part of the family. Many of my friends have had pets for all their lives and I know how their pets affect them. They talk about them like their people.
*hugs*

And Eowyn snuck off again??? I hope you find her!! You need a tracking device or something (not meaning to joke about something serious, but seriously, a tracking device works wonders. My friends have one in their dog and it's amazing).
I guess she's been wandering off for some reason -- maybe she adopted some babies and she's been taking care of them somewhere. :O
But I'm sure she'll be back soon!

And the new layout looks fantastic!!! I love the little crosshairs when you scroll over a link. :) And sexy pirate men is always a plus.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

In some ways they are more than family than our human family.

Yep, she's been gone since Thursday. It really is getting in my nerves. I wonder where she goes.

Thank you. :)

[kiptrip.livejournal.com]

I'm SO looking forward to this movie it's unbelievable.

Once again -hugs-

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Me too! I have a really short shift on Friday (I didn't even ask for it to be short) so as soon as I'm off I'm going to the theater.

Thank you.

[ponchki.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry that Jackson has gone. He was a beautiful doggy and I'm sure a really good friend.

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

He was. He'll be miss so much, but he did leave us with some good memories.

[working-goo.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

New Layout looks Scrum-Diddly-Umptious!! Love it!

Is Eowyn back yet?!

Maybe you should call Maury and he'll put her in bootcamp for troubled teens!!!

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I couldn't decide what to make it from the 2nd movie, so I just did something from the first.

Nope, she's still AWOL.

That's a good idea! Or I could threaten her with Connie Chungs singing.

[working-goo.livejournal.com]

OMG Eowyn! COME BACK!!!

LMAO OR BOTH! Maybe they'll throw in a free paternity test too!

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Maybe!

[imtindome.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Pets in all shapes and sizes affect us when they're in our lives. That's why we love them so much.

And Jackson is no doubt chasing down all the furies in doggy heaven.

[froggybsb03.livejournal.com]

*sad sigh* Aw Bon, I'm so sorry. Thanks for giving a bit more explanation; I know I was like "WHAT?!?!?" when I saw the previous post. :( And as far as microchipping goes; I just had all four of my pets microchipped when I took them to the vet, and the grand total (including their regular shots) was over $400US. So I think its moderately expensive...but I tell ya what, as soon as I get my own internet (since right now I'm stuck at the library) I shall send you some money, k? I owe you a really belated birthday gift anyway.
Take care. ****HUG****

[araestel.livejournal.com]

I'm of the opinion our pets are family. And it hurts sometimes even more to lose a four-legged family member because they love us unconditionally and never yell or bitch at us.

*hugs*

[rickysbaby.livejournal.com]

I love the layout.

And trust me, I know how hard it is to have to give up your pet due to sickness. You made the right choice. And all dogs go to Heaven.

**squishies**

[dingleberries.livejournal.com]

oh bun.....I'm so sorry. My stomach dropped when I read this, I know exactly how you feel. I dont care what some people say animals are a lot more than just....well... animals!!! They love you no matter what, and you did the right thing. It was pretty much the same situation with my dog a couple years ago,she couldn't walk or see and it just happened so friggin' fast. but hey......maybe our doggies are playing together up in doggy heaven right now!!!lol!!!that's a happy thought!!!
anywho,love you much and sorry it took me so long to read this post:(
luvs ya~
~*james*~

Re: **squishies**

[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon. I'm just so in shock about it still. I do hope they're playing together.