Smoke in my eyes

[bunnylove]

I still can't quite believe it and neither can my parents. We're still in shock about the whole thing. My dad's doing a lot better than mum and I thought. It's going to be hard for him because it was just him and Jack at his place. I've had my moments today where I want to phone up and see how he is, but then I think "oh, right" and try to get past it.

Some people may thing 'it was just a dog', but as a lot of pet owners know that it's more than that. They affect our lives so much that it's really amazing how much it hurts when they leave us. He was my first dog. I got him when I was 12. My family has been blessed that we had him despite the trials we faced. We haven't had a loss in the family for a very very long time, so really this is the first passing that I've had to deal with as an adult.

For those of you who are curious, he got very sick very very fast. He was in a lot of pain and couldn't walk and it was just the humane thing to do. It didn't make a lot of sense to spend hundreds of dollars to prolong his life when he wasn't going to be happy. The vet said it could be a number of things, but we just don't know exactly what. Even the vet was crying with us yesterday, that's how much he affected everyone.

Thank you everyone, it meant a lot to hear what you had to say. I still don't feel like discussing it much, so again, please don't take it personally if I don't reply.

Last night and today I worked on my layout. I needed to take my mind off of things. I'm happy with the way it turned out, but the only thing I don't like is that I can't use the customized comments page because the original layout was made for free/paid users.

Aye, avast!: leggyslove

It looks better in Firefox. There are still some bugs that need to be fixed for the IE view.

Eowyn's been missing since yesterday afternoon.

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[leggyslove.livejournal.com]

He was. He'll be miss so much, but he did leave us with some good memories.