Bunny Love

Holy crap, it's June. How'd that happen? I've been so preoccupied with other things I just realized today that my birthday is in 2 weeks. o.O That kind freaked me out. *cough*wishlist*cough*

The Canadian dollar is at $0.94 US. I really wish I could go down to the states and shop, especially Target, because I haven't been to Target since I was about 11 or 12. Dear Target, come to Canada. Kthnx.

I'm honestly amazed at how well Tinkerbell is doing. It's almost like she was born here, she's just moved herself right in. She loves to be outside and loves chasing bugs. Her and Eowyn still avoid each other, so they haven't really bonded. They may never get really friendly or they could become best buds. It hasn't even been a week yet, so we've got time. She snuck out the other night and ended up about 3 feet away from a raccoon. Gave me a heart attack, but luckily the raccoon didn't really care (it was one of the babies from last year) and didn't do anything. I just picked her up and threw her inside. Tink seems to have some outdoor sense (the shelter said she was a stray), but she needs some 'non kitty' animal sense.

This icon is seriously providing me with way too much joy. I just cannot stop looking at it and cracking up.

This past week has been rough ( cut for venting )

Hopefully next week will be the last week of school for me. My teacher just kept giving me project after project and I really started to feel like I'll never get it done. Right now I have one project left and then when I'm done that then I'm done. Done with high school. Done with feeling like I wasn't as good as my friends when I was in school because I didn't graduate with a full diploma. I'm 22 years old (23 in two weeks - holy crap) and on June 27th I'll officially be graduated. gremmie_goo said she would come to the ceremony and that means so much, because even though I had 'friends' when I graduated in 2002 it didn't really mean much. Even though Goo and I didn't go to school together having her there will make it more personal and fun. Oh, and my mum and dad will be there as well. LOL Of course they'll be there. I put them through hell with school. Depression reared it's ugly head and I just couldn't cope. Some days I couldn't even function or do anything. Going to school some days was like I was going to my execution. That's how powerful it was and how damaging. I didn't do drugs. I didn't get in trouble. I wasn't bullied. I didn't get horrible marks (when I was there), it was just the fact that I would miss days, weeks and sometimes even months of school at a time. Because I wasn't there I just freaked out at how behind I was and it just made everything worse. It was a vicious cycle.

I also didn't feel like I could be me. The Internet is really the first place that I've felt free to express who I really am and what ii'm about and to see how many people I've met and have become friends with has boggled my mind. I didn't think I'd ever have people who wanted to be friends with me because of who I truly am. I guess I was wrong.

Thinking back now I think I should have dropped out for a year or two, gotten my shit together and then go back. But that didn't happen, this is the way it happened and now I'm almost done and I can get this monkey off my back.

Wow, I don't think I've ever really gone into that much detail on here about when I was in high school.

Now I feel like I want to lock this post, but I don't think I will. I am who I am and if you don't like it then you can go somewhere else.

It looks as if all this LJ drama has calmed down. I'm not going to go into a lot about what I thought and such, all I will say is that LJ's heart is in the right place, but I think they should have done a little thinking and/or research before they just started deleting journals and causing a mass panic.

I want to go away this summer. I haven't been to the cabin in over two years which is the longest I've ever been away from it. Right now I don't even know if it's still standing. LOL Dad said he'll get us over there hell or high water. All I want to do is sit on the deck and read and read and read (and other things). I'm so burnt out. I need to get away. That's one of the things I love about the cabin. No electricity. No running water (ok, that I don't love as much). No phones, cars, roads ect. No anything. I can just sit on the deck or beach or whatever and do whatever the hell I want.

After 5 years here on LJ, I think I want to change my user name. Nothing drastic, but it figures the user name I want is taken! I hate that. And to make it more frustrating it looks as if they haven't updated their journal in almost a year (ironically the last entry posted was on my birthday). I dunno. I guess I'll just keep the one I have, or I'll see if I can contact the person and if they are still reachable maybe we could work something out.

I really want some Ben and Jerry's Half Baked ice cream. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ice cream.

I also need a hair cut.

I made a bunch of Heroes icons and posted them over at bunny_icons

Fuck, this entry was long. If you read it then... uh... *hands you a bottle of booze*